51: After a night of stewing and fuming

I'm a sixty three year old white male in a mixed relationship for the last 30 years. At work yesterday I was party to a conversation between two colleagues one a sixty year old working class white man the other a 30ish mixed race electrician. The white guy, about a year and a half ago used the N word to describe a co worker I challenged him and said it was unacceptable to use that word he then made a point of coming up to me to repeat that word to get a rise out of me, that passed. The conversation yesterday was the white guy telling the mixed race guy that he wasn't really 'black' and I quote "you've just been licked by a tar brush' I tried to push back against this and the white guy retold the story above about the N word except he put me in his place in the story which made me very angry but I rebutted this calmly and the conversation moved on to BLM and taking the knee with lots of "I'm not a racist/there is not a racist bone in my body". To his credit the younger guy kept calm and continued to drawer out the older guy's ideas and was not intimidated. I left them at this point. Today I spoke to both of them separately after a night of stewing and fuming over it. the younger guy only started to work with us a few weeks ago the older guy I have known for 5/6 years. Neither knew I am in a mixed marriage with two children as I don't share that with many of my colleagues although many know. I asked the younger guy if he was OK with the conversation and he said he was OK and realised that many people my age had these views and he was happy to talk about race, however he did say that had a person of his age been expressing the same views he would have found that unacceptable. The older white guy I avoided until he came to me about something else when I took the opportunity to tell him I was offended that he had retold the story from 18 months ago casting me in his role, and that I didn't think he should be saying those things to the mixed race guy. And I decided to tell him why, that I had two mixed race children and I was offended that he would talk about them in that way. He was shocked, embarrassed and apologetic. This is very common amongst white people in my experience.

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